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Lyndon Hawk- Mirror and Magic's avatar

Wow! That was so powerful to read, to try and understand. The courage it took to share is immense. I hope you have healed and understand the courage, commitment to change. Thank you for sharing and making yourself and your family history so vulnerable.💙

Untriggered_sapien's avatar

Thank you. Healing, at least in my experience, isn’t becoming innocent again - it’s becoming conscious enough to stop passing the wound forward. I’m glad it resonated with you. 💙

QuantitativeSynchronicityData's avatar

"“A roadmap. Of everything I’m doing wrong." Indeed. Negative role models are very instructive.

Untriggered_sapien's avatar

Sometimes the inheritance isn’t wisdom - it’s warning signs. And if you’re paying attention, even damage can become instruction. I’m glad it resonated with you.

QuantitativeSynchronicityData's avatar

I see different versions of generational crap in my family. Strangely, I have always felt separate from that. They struggle with issues that I see myself as impervious to, not that I don’t have my own shit. I see a lot of myself in that heroic seven year old. After that happened, I would have been on the look out for mom for YEARS.

QuantitativeSynchronicityData's avatar

I think I may have seen a recent travel pic of you. If so, well done !

Untriggered_sapien's avatar

Yup! Thanks 🙌🏻

Coffee Girl's avatar

Just what I needed today. Thanks for this!

Untriggered_sapien's avatar

Glad to hear that! I’m glad it resonated with you.

Coffee Girl's avatar

It did. It expressed a subject I am still studying: why do people know the right things to do yet consistently behave destructively.

The Secret Ingredient's avatar

It seems like the notebook gave you so much to process and unravel and with a pivotal guide to healing and deepen in your understanding of your heritage beautiful peace thank you for writing

Untriggered_sapien's avatar

Thank you for reading it so deeply. I think some families pass down recipes, others pass down silence. The notebook was the first honest thing that interrupted that pattern.